2010 and beyond!

I know it’s been almost a month already since the new year began but I would like to think it’s still okay to make resolutions or declarations for this year. I’m not aiming for life-revolting ones or those that are too sadistic for my own good (like eating sweets for only once or twice a month or jogging everyday).

Soooooo…

For 2010 and beyond, I will read books and review them here on my WP. As much as I can. As intensively as I can.

For 2010 and beyond, I will watch movies (on theater or on DVD copy) and review them here on my WP. As much as I can. As intensively as I can.

For 2010 and beyond, I will go places. Literally and figuratively.

For 2010 and beyond, I will act responsibly and maturely at work. No more sour-graping, no more devil-may-care attitude, lessen the whining and focus on more on doing.

For 2010 and beyond, I will chase my fangirl dreams.

For 2010 and beyond, I will be in a romantic relationship. And with this, I must forget some of the standards I made of a partner especially those related to my obsession with KPop stars.

For 2010 and beyond, I will spend ample time with myself and my loved ones.

13elieve!

Now is not the time to be divided.
Yes, we are all entitled to our opinion.
Anyone might even feel bad, or worse, blame Hankyung, for filing the case for termination of his contract.
But deep in our hearts, we are more afraid of disbandment that this might entail.
But moving away from a fangirl-state-of-mind, I know that this whole thing is SME’s fault. Their hunger for money and profit has never wavered and they never learned their lessons from what happened to H.O.T., Shinhwa and just recently, DBSK.

I believe that the important thing for a human being is to be happy in his stay in this bleak world. And for Hangeng, who would never think twice on donating his own earnings for the less fortunate ones, this case is not merely an issue of money and greed. It never is. This is an issue of finding justice and equality and yes, happiness. To be able to do what you want to do and to receive what you’re worth.

For now, until Hangeng himself release his statements, I will pray that this will be for the betterment of himself and the group as well. Until then, I’m keeping the faith and I3elieve!

cr:kyuranger@soompi

Junior No More

They are men! Sizzling hot men for that matter.

I thought Sorry Sorry, It’s You and Super Girl MVs can’t get any better. In other words, Super Junior can’t be portrayed better than how they were shown or how they performed in those MVs.

But, the Sorry Sorry Answer MV. Awesomeness at a whole new level. I’m dead.

credit: sment youtube channel

Even without english subs, it gripped my heart like crazy. These men, if I was around the place where they are, I would have fainted with a heavenly smile plastered on my face.

The black concept was just fitting, it was perfect for the whole tone of the music and video.

Comments on every member:

• Siwon must stop flaunting his body. Because the abs were toned down, not macho-man-competition-ish, I paused the video looking intently. And that is something for someone who’s never a fan of Siwon’s muscled body.
• Heechul with a Macbook. Not playing games but working. And biting his lips. Woah.
• Donghae waiting at the bench. I’m comiiiiing! LOL. And his dancing and rapping (sans the autotune or whatever it is they do making the voice sound electronic and not their real voice): hands down!
• Leeteuk lying on the couch. Never liked (as in like like) Leader because of his queasy voice that could compete with mine. But his image lying down makes an adult woman like me think some evil thoughts.
• Shindong in this video made me forget he’s an MC for a kid show. He’s older grown-up brother.
• Sungmin with his piano. He was my 3rd crush but then his Super Junior Happy image stuck on me so well that I completely forgot he could be this sexy. But no, Kyu remains 3rd still. No worries, Sungmin. This is the manliest I’ve ever seen you and am proud.
• Hankyung and his luxury car. Don’t mind riding with you. And Father SM, it’s time to give the boys this type of cars under their name and not under your company. Daesang!!!
• Ryeowook is my least favorite among the members because his voice sounds like a girl. Nevertheless, Ryeowook and/with books are just my cup of tea.
• Eunhyuk dancing. As always. His rapping is getting better and better. And he’s getting more handsome in my eyes every minute of the video.
• Yesung sipping a cup of coffee. And showing some skin. ftw. Am getting dizzier because of too much osm.
• Kyuhyun got too much exposure because of his lines that he does not have any individual scene. But his singing shots were enough. Lost my soul because his voice melted it away.
• Champagne-drinking party of the boys. Too classy. And I love it so much.
• Kangin was shown at the end. I bet he had individual scenes but because of the scandal, they did not include it, imo. But I hope next year, we’ll have him back. ‘Cause I’m hoping for a more mature man who learned his lessons well.
• And No Kibum. Was expecting it. But still believing and hoping, someday, I could see him with his brothers.

Too much Siwon and Heechul (aside from the SJ KRY) in this video but I’m not complaining. Love it too much, love them too much it pains me.

And as I always say, yes, I am such a fangirl. ^_^

let’s forsake the world

for all i care about
for all you care about

these all
those all
i don’t think they care about us
the same way we do

reciprocity is overrated
giving more, taking less
taking more, giving less

too chaotic to move
so stay still
and let everyone wonder
why you’re unfazed
until everyone’s staring at you
world has finally gone to a stop
then you make the move

12.09.09.
생일 축하합니다
최 민호!

Just late

Fatal to stay calm
When everybody’s rushing
In hindsight
Everything you did
Should be done otherwise

I should have been there
Not here
Not dabbling my thoughts
Just so I could feel better

But would I feel better?
No, not in the near future.

It will haunt me. Always.
Even if everybody gets over this,
I won’t.
I have a feeling I won’t.

Philippines-Korea Friendship Day Concert 2009 Main Event

By the time we enter the theater, Jonghyun’s face was on the screen singing his part for the Ring Ding Dong MV. Yes, there was a screen on the center of the stagewall. And since, there had been many fangirls who were before us on the line, they were just screaming at the top of their lungs whenever there’s a member (especially if he’s their favorite) being shown on the screen upon entering. So yes, once you enter the theater, you’ll be welcomed with squeals from your kababayan-fangirl/boy.

We were shown with music videos during the whole waiting time. So here’s a summary of what was shown (No SJ ∏.∏ ) in random order because you can’t make a very excited fangirl memorize everything in sequence:

1. Ring Ding Dong by SHINee : Everyone was squealing like there’s no tomorrow. Even those who had just stepped inside. And yes, I am guilty too. Maybe because we’ve been holding our breath while entering that you just have to let it all out in a fangirly manner. And many were also cheering for Taemin when he comes out on the screen because he was not able to come due to Swine Flu.
2. I Don’t Care by 2ne1 : And yes, we still love the Pambansang Krung Krung. Or in my case, I really don’t like her to begin with but I super like her co-members. So many squealed by the beginning and then when members were shown individually but not so much compared to other MVs that followed.
3. Kiss by Sandara Park : Yes, she has her own single. And the MV is also a beer advertisement. Of course, this got the fangirls in the theater excited because by the time that Lee Minho (Gu Jun Pyo of BOF, yuhuh, he was in the MV sharing a kiss with Sandara) appeared, all BOF and Minho fans lost their sanity.
4. Are You A Good Girl? by DBSK/TVXQ : The whole theater got wild mainly because of mixed emotions from fangirls, especially the fans of the group. Those who were my lunchmates screamed so well especially when their favorites were shown. If I’m not mistaken, the one with the most number of squeals was Changmin. But I guess, they are loved so well by fans even here in the country. Because despite the distracting and disappointing video for them performing at a recent show (clearly showing some Red-Sea-ish separation of mems), Filipino Cassiopeia (as well as the rest of the world) will always keep the faith.  ^.^
5. Gara Gara Go by Big Bang : This one is another hit. Just like Are You A Good Girl, it received squeals from beginning to end. Most squeals were for Seungri, Taeyang and TOP based from what my ears had taken. So Teddy, I think there’s not much competition for GD.
6. La Cha Ta by f(x) : Ito ang medyo hindi kinaya ng fangirl spirit ko. By the start of the song, there were squeals. But there were fanchants as if f(x) was performing live. For other MVs, people were just following songs and screaming but for this one, it’s as if the fanclub prepared for this moment. Thus, the fanchant. Most squeals: Sulli and Amber. I expected Amber.

Philippines-Korea Friendship Day Concert 2009 prelude

WOW! Just plain WOW!

Before the announcement of who’s going to perform on this Friendship Day Concert, I have already thought that it was SHINee. So at that time, I decided that I’ll do whatever it takes (thinking of the price range I’m willing to shell out) to watch this.

Getting back on track to be a know-it-all

I guess at this point, KPop is becoming too much for me to handle. At this point, I’m being grossed-out at myself for being so engrossed on talented idol groups and a country who loves their language so much, it doesn’t sound baduy having songs in your own language. Something that Philippines lack in terms of mainstream songs that’s why the only thing I’m proud of are the classics and rock music.

But this month, I felt that I don’t know much already about the whole world except for my own country and Korea. Proof is my mediaplayer here in my PC (office). It’s full of new releases and fave songs from Korean artists I like and not-yet like. So I decided to get my Eraserheads albums, Sugarfree albums and other artists (Hungry Young Poets, Barbie’s Cradle, South Border, Smokey Mountain, Freestyle, Gloc 9) from my external hard drive for a dose of OPM I’ve been missing so much.

And now, I’m loving what I’m listening in the past few days. Yes, Korea may have talented (in terms of performing) idol groups who are eye-candies but Filipinos are still better on composing songs (imo, i am biased, yes). Cases in point are the aforementioned Pinoy artists.

So after reading some fantastic blogs of people I really look up to, here are the things I realized I’m missing out because of spending too much time online and must get back to the habit of doing at present:

1. Reading books. And this entails going to bookstores which I found out that my body (including my brain) sorely misses. From Powerbooks to National Bookstore to bookstore/book sales at UP Diliman. Though I’m reading one right now, I don’t even memorize the title. Just that it has Backwards in the title. It’s just my put-me-to-sleep-book although I’m on first few pages so I can’t judge how good it is yet.
2. Going to events. Like concerts, free international film festivals, plays or even free workshops/marathon race. Nights are spend on drinking and catching-up sessions with friends and this is what I’ve been considering as event the past few months. Also, the last festival I went to is Korean Food Festival (without proper food given out, just ricecakes which tastes amazing) but it’s Korean-related and fueled at first by my fangirl feelings, but in the end, I also have the want to immerse in their culture.
3. Visiting and spending time in the library. Being a working girl who has to work from Mondays to Saturdays has its downside. And this is one of them. I can’t even apply for an alumni ID at UPD for an access at the library. Or even going to Quezon City Hall Public Library just to smell old books which excites me like a kid in the candystore.
4. Visiting places. No, I don’t need to go out-of-town for this one. It’s time-consuming and costly and I can’t afford that because it’s Christmas time already. Just some places to visit like this cheap resto where there’s really good food, Baywalk for more feeling-emotional-walking-by-the-bay drama. Though I always feel good going to Cubao Expo. And I’m glad my house is just nearby.
5. Take some lesson. I’m interested on taking ballet lessons again. Beats me why. Maybe just the thought brings memories of my childhood and I miss being a child who does not care about making money or always working on preserving self-respect. Or any dancing lessons. Or French language lessons. Actually, if I don’t need to go to Benguet or Zamboanga, I’m interested on learning how to weave.

These are just some of those things I want to do again. Or some things I want to try. And no, I’m not waiting for next year and make these as resolutions. Because I don’t even believe on New Year’s resolutions in the first place. Must.Start.Now.

 

MAMA 2009

Note: I wrote this while watching MAMA 2009 live. So these are spontaneous reactions with lack of vocabulary explicit because I could only think of common words to express my feelings.

Not because any SM group especially Super Junior is not attending does not mean that I will miss out MAMA 2009. Especially if it’s showing live on our cable channel. It does not happen always.

So Drunken Tiger’s Monster was the perfect opening for the event. And though I was rooting for f(x), I was betting 2ne1 will win the New Female Artist because they have been a big hit since their debut.

BEG and Kara’s dance mashup was awesome though I find Kara’s Honey’s rock version not that rock-y enough. And who was the band they collaborated with? Just curious. Though I hate it that I haven’t seen much shots of BEG doing the Mister dance.

Dance Song? Honey?!?!?! I don’t believe this. I have nothing against Kara because I like Nicole but Honey was not the Best Dance Song. I love Super Junior and of course, I was rooting for Sorry Sorry but if they won’t win this award, I think that it should have been Gee or Again and Again. At this point, the music award is getting on my nerves. If 8Eight won’t win on the next award (or Clazziquai), I won’t believe it anymore.

Sobfest.

I love movies that make you cry your heart out. Last time I cried so hard watching a movie is when I watched Lift King Kong (a korean movie which is a story of a mentor and his weightlifting team). I was eating dinner and watching it at home which made it comfortable for me to cry so much that the food I’m eating and my tears are mixed together.

The movie I’ve been waiting for months already to be released in DVD was out last November 6 (SJ!). It’s a Japanese movie entitled APRIL BRIDE. It’s based on real life of a Japanese man wanting to marry his girlfriend even if she has a month left to live due to cancer. Death and love are fatal combination for a sobfest. Yes, there had been many stories around this theme but there’s something about the story, the acting, the soundtrack of this movie that makes me want it so badly. And now that it’s out, someone will definitely be subbing it so I can watch it already. Too bad because I’m planning to buy the DVD but I need Eng Subs included in it.

Now for the curious ones, here’s the trailer with english subs:

Her teary-eyed-face-yet-she’s-happy-look by 1:24-1:25 pinches my heart.

And for those wondering about the main single for the OST, it’s performed by Juju and Jay’ed which I super love (the song and their voices give me goosebumps):

I want to watch this.